This Ransomed Heart

Okay, so it's been about 2 years 🙈🙊... Much has changed.  I am a married woman as of October 11, 2021, which is HUGE because...well...if you know me or know my story, you probably know that for many years I did not believe this would ever happen. AND because...as my brother so lovingly put it at the wedding, "I always thought to myself, if there is someone that can put up with Gabby, that is a gift from God". It's true. But now, I have an amazing husband who loves and serves me so well even when I am difficult, which is most of the time.  I have a new last name. Geleta. I discovered that changing said last name is INCREDIBLY DIFFICULT and tedious. And no matter how many things I think I have updated, I keep finding more. I just keep a copy of our marriage license on me now just in case. I discovered that marriage is hard. I mean, yes, I had heard that before. But it's one thing to hear something...and another to experience it for yourself. And then you have thos...

Goodbyes are probably hard for most, if not everyone, at least sometimes.  I thought by now it would be easier. It's not. Thankfully, I have not lost anyone that I was extremely close to in a very long time. One of my grandfathers passed when I was 9. I was close to him and it was painful, but I think what was more painful was seeing how much pain my mom and grandmother were in, so I tried really hard to be strong for them. After he passed, I really struggled with this fear that others close to me who I loved were going to die. As in, I would go check on my parents and siblings multiple times throughout the night because I would wake up in a panic wondering if they had died...or after watching Left Behind , if they had been raptured, leaving me behind because I forgot to say sorry for being mean that day.  When we moved to Swaziland, the goodbyes were really hard, but I think somehow it felt more like we were going on a really long trip and there was so much excitement about m...